Well, after 3 years of journeying with this last batch of confirmation, I've come to the conclusion that there is someone who is more qualified to do the job than I am.

Its not a sad realization, its actually been hanging around for quite a while, slowly I've come to the conclusion that, well, I'm not a people person, and that I will probably NEVER be one.

And I think that I'm fine with that, but there's always a down side isn't there? I'll always be alone. It bothers me, of course, that I don't connect to people on that personal level, but as we say, Lan Lan Suck Thumb.

But give me a moment to rant k?

URGH FUCKING NABEI CHEE BYE, WY THE FUCK IS EVERYTHING NOT GOING MY WAY. WHY IS IT THAT THE PEOPLE THAT DO NOT DESERVE TO HAVE EVERYTHING GO FOR THEM HAVE JUST THAT. WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I EVER DONE TO DESERVE ALL THE FUCKING CRAP THAT HAS BEEN THROWN AT ME..

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I NEED TO SMASH SOMETHING SOON BEFORE I LOSE MY FUCKING MIND. IF I DON'T LOSE SOME STEAM SOON, I'LL LITERALLY GO INSANE AND URGH.

So many thoughts in my head and I can't reallt get anything coherent out.

I have so many decisions to make and the first decision I have made is that I don't want to continue next year. And right now, I don't think that I can do anythign in church now.. I'm just too angry with the world, and angry with god.

Help Me?

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